I come to you in pieces so you can make me whole

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA. oh man, ever dig through old folders on an old comp to find old pics??? thats how i found this beauty, me with medium hair, Web before his hair got long...this was at his schools dance (his school he went to is a town over from the one i went to) and it was like...10th grade? maybe 11th im not sure. but Web and I are always joking around having a great time, hence why we went junior high on everyone. that was my old wrestling attire too btw. as you can see below


man thats old school for ya, like...06? i cant remember id have to watch the old tapes and i dont feel like it right now

ah. its 10:00 Am. i actually got a decent nights sleep. 6 hours is better then the usuall 3 hours. so maybe i wont take a power nap today...probably will anways.
so not much has gone on.
a guy my backyard buddies know had a try out for WWE and hes basically in, he just has to get bigger...and hes 19. here i am 20, not bulked, and going no wheres. it was a bit of a slap in the face to me to get my ass going if wrestlings what i really wanna do. so ive started working out. i do it every morning right after waking up, cause eating then working out, is the worst idea. and i know if i wait for my food to digest ill be waiting a while then become lazy.

side note, the band im suppose to be singing for has started up practicing and soon will need me so...yeah go me? i told them if were gonna do this, i demand we do a cover of What have you done now with my friend Morgan. or some Paramore song and she can sing it, shes the only person ill allow to sing Paramore in my presense, i hate it when people who ccant sing, try to and ruin the song for me...i mean i dont mind a good fun time singing jjust for fun, like on the drive to Round Lake for a wrestling show, myself, Don Warren, George, and Weber all knew unforgiven II so we all sang it, im ok with that, but when im driving and their singing to themselfs or something like that i cant enjoy it, call me an asshole but its true. and Morgan has a talented voice, and pulls off Paramore amazingly, and weve sung what have you done before just for funzies, and it was great i feel. oh and Allie i alllowed to sing Paramore but lets not go into that.

oh so i forgot to mention about my hangins at Martel and 2steps. we watched an old 80s horror film called Silent night deadly night, about a kid whos uncle told him how santa punshishes the naughtey then that night his parents were killed by a guy in a santa outfit, so he grows up hating santa and being terrified of him then he grew up and hes a late teen, and the store he works for has him dress up as....you guessed it SANTA, he goes on a psychotic kill spree. it was good, it was one of those, "sex and death" things. then we watched SawV which was FUCKED up, but REALLY good story

ever forget bout something like a movie/song then watch/ listen to it again and realize how great it is? that happened to me recently with both a movie and song. the movie- the Condemned. such a good movie, i suggest you all see it. song, suffocate by Cold. i love Cold and always listen to them idk why i havent listened to Suffocate in a while but i havent and i did and it ruled.
now im sitting on the couch watching Street Fighter II Anime/manga movie. pretty good, havent seen it in a while. i think im just looking to unbury old things i love but havent shown much love to latley. not sure what to watch next since now its over...well across the universe is on i think ill leave that to play.

so yeah...nothing else in the world of me really. G-pa's in the hospital, hes been having chest pains, im sure he'll be fine. mom goes into surgury for her knee next wednsday. so thats gonna be fun. taking care of her all day every day for at least 2 months...

well enjoy the rest of these old photos i found...be shocked to see me with short hair...

small spiderman suit in wally world





everyone at an old wrestling show...i be the one on top right in the jersey


Andrea and I at a Taking Back Sunday concert...
heres a not old pic but the last pic of Andrea and I before she left for the Navy
yup...our last hang out before she left for the navy, sure when she came home for leave i hung out with her but...oh how i miss her <3
old wrestling, a move i called the Frog Leap where i front fliped then leg droped the back of yoiur head...this was the match where i tore something in my chest

Frogleap again, but on the base we upgraded to. this was before we made it the best. this was just tires, plywood, carpet, and tarp. our base is now *from bottom to top* tires, pallets, mattres springs, plywood, carpet.
another old pic. with me entering. and facing off with Reaper, i was IC champ aaaaand he was in a match to dermine number one contender for my belt. but lost haha
me again with the IC belt. i held it for a while. me and the Hardcore Legend wrestler known as Mick Foley.

one of Maddy and I's first hang outs, she was obssessed with my super man shirt and wanted to wear it, so we traded shirts. mind you this is at a county fair haha

Maddy and i again at a pizzaria...wow, we were young. look at the short hair with the gel! haha


ok im just astounished at how Maddy and I have grown im posting the latest pic of us just to compare...


yup we grew lol. this is us at the midnight premier of Twilight


Well hope you enjoyed...ccyaaaa

-This is how we dance when when they try to take us down this is how we'll sing it, this is how we'll stand when when they burn our houses down this is what we'll be oh glory/ On this day, i see clearly everything has come to life, better place and a broken dream and we leave it all behind, on this day its so real to me, everything has come to life. another chance to chase a dream another chance to feel. chance to feel alive-

so now im standing here all alone, im learning how to live life on my own...

so the weekend is over. and im sad cause i for once, had an eventfull and not boring, fun weekend.
so you know up untill the day of me going to Martel and 2steps to hang out. well i went, and it was ultimatly the funnest. hung out with Martel, 2 step, carlos, mr.colins, manic, grey tee, rocco, and big guns. i ended up pulling an all nighter with 2step, we stayed up watched wrestling videos and talked over lots of wrestling funzies.
sunday, didnt go wrestle, it was 14 degrees. SCREW WRESTLING out in that weather. especially after having an all nighter, we all hung out for the day then, Martel, 2step, manic, rocco, big guns, mr.colins, Scuba Steve, Dr.Sexy, and myself watched the royal rumble. which was a GOOD show. EDGE IS WWE CHAMP AGAIN!!!! RVD returned, Orton won the rumble. it was a really good show. (no i never got to see Kate and meet Rach =/ )
then i dropped off Manic and Scuba Steve and came home.
in which the process of, i got TWO pieces of info which made me down...perhaps in time ill reveal them to the "general public" but right now im keeping to myself and a select few.

P.S. Sky, yes i did have a blast at the Chinese Girls' house

-This is how we dance when when they try to take us down this is how we'll sing it, this is how we'll stand when when they burn our houses down this is what we'll be oh glory/ On this day, i see clearly everything has come to life, better place and a broken dream and we leave it all behind, on this day its so real to me, everything has come to life. another chance to chase a dream another chance to feel. chance to feel alive-

you call me a stranger you say im a danger

WHATS UP MAH FANS OF MAH SUPERSTARDOM!
so its almost 7am....im home surprisingly enough
so yesterday was a good day. did everything i planned to, then made breakfast and went to bed by 730ish woke up at 2pm. went to buzzys college. it was fun, and i discovered the power of an asskicking 5 hour energy shot. lets just say, this shit, fucks your mouth with authority. then your adrenline system.
we hung out at the chinese girl's house. alas, only Meggie and Veronica were up, the rest were passed out. so we hung out with them, leo and alex, they saw my wreslting videos and ultimatly im famous hahah.
we left i came home. i went to bed at 1am. but woke up at 4...ugh. i hate having insomnia. its a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch and a half.
so im watching OLD OLD wrestling tapes from when i was like....14-15! the year 04-05.
these vids arent up on youtube for a reason, they SUCK! lol, were just....i dont even know we act like we know what were doing, moves are executed so wrong, bumps are HORRID, and its hilarious.
story lines and commentarys hilarious though.
"i need a drink" "you can drink my LIQUIFIED SHIT!" and there was a storyline where i ran for presidency of the fed cause the president was a drunk. and steve has a commentator called "EXTREME ERIK!!!" who from IDAHO! and is FULL FORCE for the SOUTH and not you YANKEE SOMSABITCHES, THE CIVIL WAR IS ALIVE AND WELL! lol
you aaaaaaaaaaaaare aaaaaaa butt humping goblin rapping piece of flamming fuck!
im so glad we learned and are so much better. wow i was SO YOUNG, and SHORT HAIR
so i got in a mood to get the two secondhand serenade CDs, so i did, and two Spill Canvas CDs.

i must say my favorite AHHHH JAMES JUST RAN IN!!!! haha ADD much? yeah ANYWAYS
my favorite Secondhand serenade song is either Stranger or Fall for you.
i havent decided which spill canvas song is my favorite

im just ultra ppumped for hangings tonight with Martel, 2step, Manic, Kate and meeting Rachael

well the sun is rising, and alas i must sleep, maybe eat first.

-This is how we dance when when they try to take us down this is how we'll sing it, this is how we'll stand when when they burn our houses down this is what we'll be oh glory/ On this day, i see clearly everything has come to life, better place and a broken dream and we leave it all behind, on this day its so real to me, everything has come to life. another chance to chase a dream another chance to feel. chance to feel alive-

did you hear the words i told you?

hola bitcholas!
so right now its 2:55. im waiting for 3 AM to roll around i just played a little bit of Metal Gear Solid 3. im wating for 3 AM cause i wanna play my PS3 online, and i have hughes net which has a certain threshhold ammount you can only use, and from 3 am to 6 am its unlimited and im pretty sure playing PS3 online would use a looot. so its all hooked up just not signed in or anything.

so latley not mucch is goin on, bros g/f Casey just went into the airforce, ill miss kicking her ass at random. my bro stayed here the night, then again, then again, and now a 4th night. i think he'll be going home tomarow though...YAY 3am im signing in but ill write more as this is a bit of a process since i chose automatching which takes a little bit to find ppl who want to do the match i want to...
but yeah i have to take care of his pug when he goes to work and im stuck home with it...blegh

tonight, i won over Sky over Jazzi, as my cuddling and will ferrell cherry amps bribes were more appealing.
bandwaggoner paramore fans continue to piss me off

so after 6 am im going to vacum, do a load of dishes in the washer, then dust, and ill be getting 20 bucks to have with me for the weekend.
then ill be going to bed, probably around 7ish or 8am

sleep till 4, wake up, shower and everything, then im heading over to Buzzys college, were hanging out for a little bit. then were gonna go to the chinese girls' house for a long night hang out. probably end up spedning the night. which will be fun, it always is a fun time.

(8 more ppl needed to do this match...c'moooooooooon)

Saturday ill be waking up, then heading home if i spent the night. were gonna do my dads bday a day early since ill be gone the 25th. probably have lasanga for dinner *moms lasagna > you*
then ill be heading out in the afternoon for an hour or so drive to my friend Martel's and am gonna hang out there. my friend Kate will be stopping by to say hi as i havent seen her since we met, and shes gonna bring her friend Rachele to introduce us. ill be staying the night at Martels.

(6 more people and its tuck here....im giving it 4 more minutes then i give up and am just joining a room rather then trying to host...NVM got em yay starting...i shall pause my writing)
well that fuckin blew. i hate fuckin laging! i pisses me off!!! i see a dude and i run duck and hide and start shooting and im getting hit while behind cover cause of lagg! ugg!!!
back to my plans...

sunday ill be at martels, then Mr.Colins 2step and myself will be going on an hour drive to RLSW to wrestle at a show, which should be good. then after the shows over back to martels to watch the Royal Rumble PPV. then back home.

so dont be surprised if im quite unreachable untill after the weekend.

well thats all for now
im gonna try to figure out how to end this lagging and keep playing CYA

-This is how we dance when when they try to take us down this is how we'll sing it, this is how we'll stand when when they burn our houses down this is what we'll be oh glory/ On this day, i see clearly everything has come to life, better place and a broken dream and we leave it all behind, on this day its so real to me, everything has come to life. another chance to chase a dream another chance to feel. chance to feel alive-

Robby Roberts 2008 Desire

no you have NOT seen this, this is a new one as of 1/15
watch please and feedback please
http://www.megavideo.com/?v=BONEU9W0

I give it all to you, Letting go of me

uhm....hi?
so if youre reading this im sure you know me, and a bit about me.
but heres a quick run down...
Jason
20
i wrestle, and love music.
ive had my heart ripped out, stomped on, nurtured back to health to be stomped on and hurt all over again by allie. then the peices were fit by a different girl only to have her drop it and shatter it all over again when found someone new. then Allie took it back again, and repeated her process as if it were some game.
so these events lead me to the pessimist i am today.
the only time i've ever felt at complete ease, and completley forgot everything was at the Paramore concert i went to and Warped tour. all were great times that i didnt have a care in the world and Allie didnt weigh on my mind. the following is a picture from Warped tour. the girl im hugging was a staff member...Buzzy and i were walking around and saw the Kia soul lounge but it was full and we didnt feel like standing in line, but there were about 3 staff members who saw our free hugs tshirts, ran up to us, and hugged us and said how cool we were, this one cute and pretty girl said how i was the coolest person shes seen the whole tour, we then let them go back to work and went our way. but we went by later and it was empty and we went in. and it was empty minus staff and this same cute staff member girl goes "hey, would you like a picture?" i asked if it was free she said yup. i told her id take the picture...only if shed be in it with me. she was like "well okay!" she got someone else to take it, and she was the one who instigated the hugging i was just gonna do the whole arm over the shoulder but she hugged me...and then she gave me my card to get the pic and said it was nice to have seen me again and hopes to see me next year....stupid me...didnt think to get her phone number....UGH!!!! i hope shes there next year...


im doing this blog cause, well when i talk about my day/time i tend to be a bit descriptive, so i figured this would be the best place for that.

but thats the big thing that happened all of 2008 and now to bring you up to date...starting christmas week
it was looking to be the saddest christmas, my family didnt have money, and it looksl ike we were gonna have to skip out on christmas this year, not even a tree which was my favorite part...it would have been just another normal day...
but we pitched together and got a tree 3 days before christmas. of course it was late so we had a choice beteen 3 trees. and got a lopsided too big tree. but it worked and it was great.
christmas eve, my friend Buzzy (real name Rob so when you hear me say Rob you know im talkin bout him) and Leo (real name Ryoskue but Leo's his american name, hes an internatial student from Japan) went to an international students christmas party, Chinese, Japanese, and Korean students all gathered to do secret santa, and we were invited as the house it was at, was some Chinese's girls houses that Buzzy Leo and myself are friends with. they did their secret santa, then we all ate, and sang christmas songs (the one time i didnt feel weird doing it with friends.) then everyone but us 3, and the girls who live there, left. i've come to be good friends with mainly Veronica, Paris, Tracey, and Meggie. the rest are cool, its just i havent yet to know them as well. it was a really fun time and i had a pretty care free time.
next day was christmas. mom dad and me left for my grandmas, and just sat and talked, no presents exchanging. then we left for my grandpa and grandmas. they got us gifts and i got them a gift card to dennys. they got me a hoody, a GPS, and a holder to put my GPS on so it wont slide off my dashboard.
New Years eve...my parents say "youve been really understanding bout this whole we couldnt do christmas. but we went out and got a loan and are gonna have christmast tomarow with your brother and Casey (his g.f) and we know you wanted an Ipod original and a PS3 but we'll take you out to get one now. i took the PS3 cause well, i can always make CD's for my car and i have my Itunes when im in my room. and my favorite Game series next to Zelda, had their final game release for PS3 and ive been dying to play it since its release. so i got Metal Gear Solid 4 and the ps3.
new years. my mom got me drinks, but i wasnt in the mood to drink so i still have them. might use them tomarow. but my brother and casey got me a Twilight hoody taht says Twilight, and the relase date and on the back it says "Roberts" in the Twilight writiing...really cool, i wear it when i enter to wrestle all the time.
so ive been playing MGS4 for a while now, beat in 24 hours but still play it again and again, this game rules, its sad though cause you can tell its the last in its series, and some of the cut scenes go over an hour!!! its ridiculous but SO GOOD! i love games with a in depth story and they had a lot to explian/holes to fill in and lots of links to connect. and in the end, everything came together.
since then, ive been wrestling, i won the Procore tournement so now im the first two time procore winner. and hold the belt for it.
ive actually been undefeated ever since november...pretty cool.
today i wrestled and busted out my new move. it was called the "Death-plex" but im thinkin more of a paramore name for it, cause its known im a big Paramore fan and use their song for my theme mixed with Metalingus by Alter Bridge
so im thinkin the H. Williams Driver, Para-Plex, Franklin drop, or Hayley Rainer. Im leaning towards Para-plex or H. Williams driver.
ill describe the move.
im behind the person so my belly is to their back. i wrap my right arm around theirs and pull it up and back so their elbow bends and their hand touches the top of their spin, i then wrap my left arm around theirs and bring it around their back so it bends at a 90 degree angle, i then pop my hips and throw the UP and over behind me. so they land on their head/neck, and i bridge for a pin.

well thats everything up to date. next time im sure it wont be SO long. but. yup...
peace out

-Jason.

-this is how we dance when, when they try to take us down this is how we'll sing it, this is how we'll stand when, when they burn our houses down this is what we'll be oh glory/ On this day, i see clearly everything has come to life. a better place and a broken dream and we leave it all behind. on this day its so real to me everything has come to life another chance to chase a dream another chance to feel chance to feel alive-